So now I can't dance...

My left foot has been giving me some trouble lately and actually hurts quite a bit when I stand on it.  I finally quit ignoring the pain and went to the doctor last night.

I'm in trouble.  He was able to tell me the problem, and it's fixable, but I'm not allowed any activity for a little while.  I have plantar fasciitis in both feet (one is worse than the other, hence unbearable pain) and tons of inflammation.  No working out.  No treadmills.  No bikes.  No dance.  NO. DANCE.

My brain is flipping out at that idea.  I'm active every day except Sundays.  I am either at the dance studio or at the gym every evening.  How...how do people live like this?  I went home after the doctor's office last night and just sat on my couch, perplexed at the sudden turn of events.

No treadmill.  No bike.  No weights.  What do people with their time?  I wandered in my kitchen, avoiding the impulse to do some ballet (like balancing at the kitchen counter in passe).  I ended up cleaning, and couldn't help wondering if I was violating the rules of recovery.

There was an ice bath (which always feels good) and resting, but I feel like I missed something last night.  This is going to be a long haul, but the lack of dance may make things harder.  I think I'll just have to sit out, but I'll still go to the studio.  Perhaps I'll get in some stretching while everyone else is dancing.  The worst thing is that I have rehearsal for our next show.  Thank goodness it's not a dance part (some premonition on the artistic director's part, I wonder?), but I do have to run across the stage at one point in the performance, and that will freaking hurt.  Wish me luck.

I want to return my adult card

I seriously don't want to be an adult anymore. 

If I'm not working, then I am learning something for work.  If I'm not learning something for work, I am cleaning my house. If I'm not cleaning my house, I am paying bills.  If I am not paying bills, then I am working out to fight weight gain and depression.  If I am not working out, then I am working.  If I'm not working, then I am learning something for work.

The vicious cycle continues.

I feel as though I have very little time to myself.  Yes, I still go to dance (as it is the only thing that keeps me sane these days) but everything else is starting to crowd in and stifle me.

It's that or my depression is actually seasonal, and if that's the case, I need some sunshine, stat. 

In honor of my rescinding adulthood, you can find me in my blanket fort with my crayons and coloring books.  You can join me if you bring Uncrustables (strawberry kind, please!) and some juice boxes.  I have the popcorn. ;)

Anyone else feel the same way?

Holy Crap - I forgot I had this blog!!!

So...I completely forgot I had this blog.  As in, "Hey, I should set up a blog on Blogger since I already have a Gmail account!" and IT. WAS. ALREADY. THERE!!!!

I even love the theme, which I must have chosen once upon a time.  I have no memory of this place.  I feel like Gandalf.

I've been maintaining a blog on my website...hmm....how to link these two.  I need to look into that.  So, expect updates, because I fully intend on making use of this.  :)