Hello dear readers!
My week has been super-busy since last week. I finally made it to the doctor's office last week and I am cleared for dance (injuries...*sigh*). I was super excited. I am also the owner of some medication that is supposed to help my panic attacks and anxiety. I've already experienced the one (and that medicine needs a MUCH bigger warning label about making me relaxed....I was a zombie on Friday!) and the other needs a few weeks to kick into gear.
On Saturday morning, I bundled myself and my backpack into the car and drove to Parkersburg, WV ALL BY MYSELF! This is a huge deal for me. I have driving anxiety and spent quite a few months in therapy to deal with it. I had been run off the road by some tractor trailers a few years ago, and the highway lost its allure for me really quick. It got to the point where I avoided driving altogether. This weekend, I broke the cycle. I drove for two hours by myself on the highway to go see my good friend in Parkersburg. I spent the night with her, got to play with my goddaughter, and generally enjoy myself. We made food, participated in the March for Babies (through the March of Dimes) on Sunday, and giggled until late into the night. Her poor husband...surrounded by reminiscing females. It must have been difficult for him. Either way, he's a good guy and makes some mean popcorn.
I made it home Sunday evening with only a minor freakout on the way home - not a panic attack, but it was an OMG! moment with a tractor trailer, an on-ramp, and vague road signage. I made it through and back home, where I promptly collapsed into my bed and introverted because I had spent the entire weekend surrounded by people.
I had my ballet class last night (and I feel it today!) and now here I sit at my laptop, telling you all about my weekend. :)
SURVIVE! The next chapter is coming. ;)
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Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Monday, February 10, 2014
The Weekend That Wasn't
My weekend passed by in a blur of illness, frantic rushing about, and too much time at the dance studio.
Friday I was home sick due to a random attack of particularly bizarre flu-like symptoms. These symptoms were enough to cause me to consider staying home within minutes of waking up. My usual "stay home" decisions are made after getting up, maybe getting into the shower, getting dressed, and attempting breakfast. It is about this time that my good sense overrides my feelings of responsibility in making it to work. One part of my brain is saying "Must go to work - things to do!" and the other part of my brain is screaming "Go back to bed! You're SICK. Do not spread illness!!"
This time, however, I sat up, looked around my room in the pre-dawn light, brain went "Nope! We're sick! Really sick!" and I texted my supervisor before allowing myself to cuddle back into my blankets until my sister woke me at seven AM, asking why I wasn't ready to go.
I still had to drive her to work, since she doesn't drive. In my sick state. It was an adventure, especially since I fell on some ice and sliced my hand open. Imagine me driving in my car, blood oozing down my hand while trying to make a left-hand turn. An adventure, I tell you.
After dropping off my sister, I returned home, where I promptly returned to my pajamas and bed. I then descended into bizarre dreams that I'm still trying to understand. I managed to find some electrolyte drink stashed in the pantry from the last time illness ran through my apartment, drank some of it, and when back to sleep. I woke briefly at 5:00, when I had to go and retrieve my sister from work. After returning home, I went back to sleep.
Saturday, I woke up very early and thought I felt better. I had an event at my dance studio for volunteer work, so I decided it would be a great idea to go. I spent five hours there, from 9:00 AM to 2:00 PM. The kids were adorable, but it was way too much for my introverted ways and I returned home, unwilling to socialize with anyone. I locked myself in my room with my laptop and headphones and worked on the outline for the next chapter of AAL, emerging only for pizza and an episode of the Big Bang Theory. (I swear, that show is my life.)
Sunday, church was out of the question as my roommate's friend was in town visiting. I managed to sleep in a little bit, eat some leftover pizza for breakfast, and then returned to my computer for a round of "let's see if we can work on something productive!" I did manage something productive, but I spent a lot of time checking outside to see what the snow cover was like. It was bad. One of my friends ended up taking me to rehearsal, where I spent all of forty-five minutes. Most of that was watching others and walking on when I needed to. All in all, very short rehearsal, when my friend returned to save me from the snow. (She's my hero.)
Suddenly, it's nine o'clock at night on a Sunday, and my brain suddenly caught up with me going "where did our weekend go?" I woke up this morning, frantic with the idea that I had lost a day somehow. It's like a time warp. (Oddly enough, I was listening Rocky Horror Picture Show while I was writing this weekend.) Just a jump to the left!
Friday I was home sick due to a random attack of particularly bizarre flu-like symptoms. These symptoms were enough to cause me to consider staying home within minutes of waking up. My usual "stay home" decisions are made after getting up, maybe getting into the shower, getting dressed, and attempting breakfast. It is about this time that my good sense overrides my feelings of responsibility in making it to work. One part of my brain is saying "Must go to work - things to do!" and the other part of my brain is screaming "Go back to bed! You're SICK. Do not spread illness!!"
This time, however, I sat up, looked around my room in the pre-dawn light, brain went "Nope! We're sick! Really sick!" and I texted my supervisor before allowing myself to cuddle back into my blankets until my sister woke me at seven AM, asking why I wasn't ready to go.
I still had to drive her to work, since she doesn't drive. In my sick state. It was an adventure, especially since I fell on some ice and sliced my hand open. Imagine me driving in my car, blood oozing down my hand while trying to make a left-hand turn. An adventure, I tell you.
After dropping off my sister, I returned home, where I promptly returned to my pajamas and bed. I then descended into bizarre dreams that I'm still trying to understand. I managed to find some electrolyte drink stashed in the pantry from the last time illness ran through my apartment, drank some of it, and when back to sleep. I woke briefly at 5:00, when I had to go and retrieve my sister from work. After returning home, I went back to sleep.
Saturday, I woke up very early and thought I felt better. I had an event at my dance studio for volunteer work, so I decided it would be a great idea to go. I spent five hours there, from 9:00 AM to 2:00 PM. The kids were adorable, but it was way too much for my introverted ways and I returned home, unwilling to socialize with anyone. I locked myself in my room with my laptop and headphones and worked on the outline for the next chapter of AAL, emerging only for pizza and an episode of the Big Bang Theory. (I swear, that show is my life.)
Sunday, church was out of the question as my roommate's friend was in town visiting. I managed to sleep in a little bit, eat some leftover pizza for breakfast, and then returned to my computer for a round of "let's see if we can work on something productive!" I did manage something productive, but I spent a lot of time checking outside to see what the snow cover was like. It was bad. One of my friends ended up taking me to rehearsal, where I spent all of forty-five minutes. Most of that was watching others and walking on when I needed to. All in all, very short rehearsal, when my friend returned to save me from the snow. (She's my hero.)
Suddenly, it's nine o'clock at night on a Sunday, and my brain suddenly caught up with me going "where did our weekend go?" I woke up this morning, frantic with the idea that I had lost a day somehow. It's like a time warp. (Oddly enough, I was listening Rocky Horror Picture Show while I was writing this weekend.) Just a jump to the left!
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